Saturday, March 7, 2015

They Are HOME!!!

I picked up the rest of our family today at the SF airport. They were so happy to see me and the other kids, but super tired and fatigued:

Here is a scary photo of them just off the plane:

After a couple of days rest everyone will be back to normal.... I HOPE!

Thank you to everyone who prayed us through the very long process.

Monday, February 23, 2015

Happy Birthday Mike .... and a Girly & Daddy Day!

Mike turned 41 on Friday the 20th. He and the girls went to their favorite cafe for Chocolate Eclairs and Hot Chocolate. That evening they went to Uncles house for dinner, where the girls served him a yummy cake with candles. Grandfather gave Mike a Ukrainian shirt.

Today Mike took the girls to get their hair washed, cut and styled. It cost $1.50 for each girl!! What a bargain!
They also got their nails done and Mike even got his hair cut too!

This week the girls birth certificates and passports will be started. Mike is hoping to be back in Kiev by Monday next week to start the medicals & American Embassy Visas. We are hoping the end is in sight.
Thank You all so much for the help of cleaning our home for my arrival and providing meals for me and the children at home. Its been such a blessing.

Thursday, February 12, 2015


Court finalized in region yesterday for the girls! 
The Girls new names: 

Sasha: Britney Ann Worth (15)
Vika: Laci Ann Worth (9)
They got to pick first names, we picked their middle names after me & Grammy.
Britney especially was very excited about picking a new name. She said "This is my new life with a new name. I'm leaving the past behind me!"

WELCOME TO THE WORTH FAMILY our beloved and longed for daughters!! 

The Lady in the picture is whom the Lord used for His own purpose and His own glory…her name is Oksana, she is the director of the orphanage.
She is the one who said to us “Come get the girls, you are the family they need.” This is after being hosted by several other USA families over the years.
We have also been staying in her apartment near the orphanage to have easy access…the Lord uses people to accomplish His great plans.

We took a train into Kiev right after court, Thursday there is USA Embassy paperwork and then I (Tara) will fly home Friday at 6am (8pm Thursday California time) while Mike waits in girls region for legal requirements to wrap up (several more weeks) and will then bring the girls HOME FOREVER! 
Laci was very disgruntled with the fact that she wasn't getting on the plane with me on Friday. She said "well, since you're my mom and dad now, do I have to go to school tomorrow?" Blahahaha I had to laugh... And yes the poor girl has to go to school tomorrow.

All the extended family CAME to the train station to say goodbye to me!
It was a very hard and emotional goodbye for me to the girls, but also G&G and uncle & aunt. Knowing they’re giving up the girls to be in a better place and could possibly never see them again.
It was hard to imagine that I will probably never see them again. They've been hospitable and loving to us, even packing candy for our 4 kids back home and food for our 4 hour train ride. 
Mike will spend time with Uncle Sergey helping in his apartment and do some things to help them prepare for a new baby.
Lots of opportunity for more conversation about Jesus.

Genesis 48 by Voddie Baucham

Adoption…10 years later…Russell Moore:

Thank you again for prayer~ 

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Another Day...

Nothing exciting to report. We are just waiting on court. We see the girls every night for a few hours.
The days are getting longer as the weather outside is getting colder.

This song pretty much somes up how we are feeling:

Saturday, January 31, 2015

Castles of the Heart...

Today was castle touring with Uncle Sergey and more time spent with the girlies talking about what family life will be like in America.
Please pray for S who knows many changes are ahead for her in living under the authority of a father and a mother…she’s excited and nervous at the same time as SO MUCH will change.

They rented a car much to the SHOCK of the Ukrainian’s who were flabbergasted! (most don’t drive or own them)
And…the inevitable squatty potty showed up again… So sad!
The girls were allowed to be with them from 8am-8pm rather than their usual after school few hours so the time together was great!

All Praise to the Lord of the Orphan…

Pastor Phil Layton-Adoption and The Gospel
Kamyanets Castle dates back to the II century AD.
Me & Uncle
Sword in the stone.... I'm not the King...I was so sad!
I was hoping to avoid this this time.....whhhaaaaaaaa

Friday, January 30, 2015

I thank God~

As many of you know adopting our girls has been a long road of high emotions, pain and longing.
Two years ago I wrote a hard post about the day we left the girls orphanage where I knelt in the snow sobbing with V asking me to "be her mommy and when was I coming back for her?". At the time all I could say to her was that I loved her and I would be praying for her forever. Knowing in my heart that I really had no idea when I would see her again. (See post here)
On the very first day we arrived back at the orphanage, before even entering through the doors I stood in the place of that spot that was so painful two years ago. I looked up into the heavens and marveled at the mighty power of our Lord. I thanked him abundantly for His unending promises: "He places the lonely in families" Psalms 68:6

And that's what these girls were, "lonely!" Even though the orphanage is full of children and women who care and teach them, there was always the one empty spot in their hearts that had never been filled with a families love. NOW, with a father, mother, five brothers and sisters, two sets of grandparents, several aunties and uncles, and a countless number of cousin these girls will have their hearts filled to the brim in no time. Their first birthday party, first Thanksgiving with much to be thankful for, first Christmas full of love and family, first Resurrection Sunday to learn and understand the meaning of Christ's love for them, we have much to look forward to in the coming year.
At night when we spend time with the girls we talk about Summer time filled with camping trips, motorcycle riding, hiking & swimming and they squeal with delight in fun times to come. Then they both groan and ask how much longer before we leave to America? Mike groans back and tells them "We too, want to know how much longer!"
Paperwork and plans are moving along. Court is tentatively scheduled for February 11th.
Thank you again for your words of encouragement and prayer.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

I am Haunted

I am haunted everyday by a little girl with a sweet smile, bright brown/green eyes and a little voice that begs “mommy, don’t leave me here”

At the time it was too painful for me to post about our last day with the girls. It is still very painful, but I am ready to share what happened that last day.

We spent a wonderful time with the girls. They were so happy to see us and immedaly asked if we came to take them home to California. Our interpreter told the girls they were not up for international adoption. That we were there for a visit after we just adopted 2 boys. We wanted the girls to meet the them. We were hopeful that S had a heart change and she was ready to be with our family. We called home for our agency to help us start paperwork to return for the girls in April or May.
Mike and I were just starting to come down with our sicknesses, but were trying our hardest to be fun and take them all skating.
For the next three days we spent quality time with all the kids and every night when we would have to return the girls to the orphanage V would sob and say “mommy, take me with you to California. I don’t want to go back.” And every night I would tell her “I am coming back for you tomorrow” This would not stop her crying, she still wanted me and our family.
The very last night as I walked the girls’ home S told me she was afraid to come live with us and she was not ready to make that permanent decision. She said she wanted to be hosted again this summer and would make a decision after summer is over. I was devastated, here we were so close to having our girl’s home and it’s gone again. It’s breaking my heart that these girls could be our daughters and they will spend time in other family’s homes, when they could be here permanently.
The next day was to be our last with them. As Mike and I got worse over night spiking really high fevers and having no energy at all, we had to call the orphanage and tell them we can’t come due to being so sick. They told us to come over and be seen by there doctor. We were giving antibiotics and throat spray. They did not want us seeing the girls because we were so sick, but we were told we could say goodbye from the door.
S was the first to come. She was very concerned for us and asked if she could come and help with the kids and make tea for us. We told her no because we did not want her to get sick. She hugged and kissed us anyways and said she knows we love her and she knows our family back home loves her too and she would talk to us later in the summer. She told us V was doing school and not able to see us. Which I was relived over, because we were so sick and I did not want to cry anymore than I already had.
It was snowing very hard at this time and we had to walk out to the street to get to our cab due to the snow being so deep. I got Mike and the 4 kids into the back of the cab and started to get into the front and that’s when I heard it… “Wait Mommy Wait!!!” As I turned around I saw V running through the snow sobbing with slippers on her feet and a coat. I ran back to her and she grabbed me and said “I love you Mommy, I love you” as I knelt down in the snow and grabbed her, sobbing I said “I love you my girl, forever!!” but this time I could not say, “I’m coming back for you.” I wanted so badly to be able to say “I’m coming”, but I couldn’t.
She ran back to the orphanage before we could say anymore. But WHAT more really, is there to say. As I sat in that snow 
weeping I once again prayed for this little girl I was sending back. I wept for the rest of the day and most of that night.
People ask me if I’m angry with S, but really I’m not. I am so filled with compassion for her, because she is in such bondage 
and fear. Satan has his grip on this girl, to keep her from a Christian home keeping her an orphan forever.

I send letters with photos, gifts and words of encouragement to both girls every week. Telling them they have a large family that loves them and prays for them everyday.
All I can do now is wait on the Lord… 
Sending back my girl